Thursday, 27 March 2014

Sit Back and Take Stock

I am generally a glass half full kind of girl. Not annoyingly happy, just generally positive. That said, just like anyone else I do have my 'down' days where anxiety gets the better of me or I just can't seem to shake the grey cloud that's following me. And on days like that sometimes it's best to just have a nice hot shower and go to bed with a book. Close that day and bring on the next, hopefully feeling better.

I had one of these days last week and, during my commute home and the aforementioned hot shower, I did a lot of thinking and came to the conclusion that now might be the time to sit back, take a little time and re-evaluate things.

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Since graduating from university back in 2012 I have been on a pretty fast-moving travelator (you know, like those annoying ones in the airport that go slower than the average walking pace?!...Only, mine is faster).

I was really lucky and got an internship almost straight away after finishing my final exams. I paid my dues working for free (as unfortunately is the norm these days) and was lucky enough to then be offered a full time position at my company, doing something that I love. Fast forward another 9 months or so and I was promoted to the position that I am in now, with added responsibility and higher expectations. All fab, right? Right.

Sometimes I feel a bit like I'm on a hamster wheel. Moving fast but not really making any ground. 
Obviously I know this isn't really true as I am working hard to build my experience and knowledge, and hopefully my career.

But when you sit back and think that, despite that, I still can't afford to move out of my parents' house, nor do i get much time to invest in other interests. It does make you question it.

No job is perfect, and the grass is always greener. I am lucky that I do a job which I ultimately really enjoy. Not every day is a picnic, and some are downright shit. But that's always going to be the case.

There are some things I would like to improve on or change, and these will require some long-term thought on what changes I want to make and how I am going to make them. When is the right time to seek fresh opportunities? I'm not sure.
Some of these thoughts were triggered by a couple of my colleagues leaving recently, which makes you think of all the other possibilities out there and pastures new. But the grass isn't always green and tasty in someone else's garden.

What I'm trying to conclude is that sometimes you just need to take some time to sit back and take stock.
Everyone has rubbish days every now and then. Sometimes they should trigger us to have a think and re-evaluate things. Re-affirm to yourself that you can alter the path if it isn't working for you any more, or that you are on the right one if you just stick with it and make a few tweaks in direction here and there.

At the end of those crappy days though, have that hot shower, tuck up in bed, chalk a line under it and start fresh tomorrow. Even if bigger changes are needed, you can approach the next day knowing that you've identified some things to alter for the better and that you're working on it. That's all you can ask of yourself.

Then you can get back to being a glass half full :)

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